IF

IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

--Rudyard Kipling

New place, new Blues...

Now I'm staying at Kampar, Perak.

I never know how different it is to stay outside , ALONE.

I'm in the process of learning how to communicate with my roommate and housemates.

I'm trying to keep a low profile in class.

I'm hoping to find a true friend like princess Wullum.

However, it is to n o avail.

People still criticise me,

Not willing to share with me their feelings

Even talking might be a form of "Acting".

I felt very sad and hurt,

knowing that some of my actions and words

are are being misunderstood and twisted by people.

I know i can never go back to the past,

I just pray that everything will be fine soon.

After all, I'm going to spend the rest of my 3 years here.

Goodbye

To TB4:

I was indeed blessed to be able to edit this final chapter of our foundation in UTAR.

You ask me, why I took all the trouble to make CD, forcing you guys to write your feelings and send me pictures? It is because I know that this is part of your wishes deep in your hearts. I’m not as natural and unrestrained like others that can simply move on like nothing happened before. While editing this CD, I have the opportunity to look back all the pictures that we took together, videos recorded, and all the words that you guys make an effort t express yourself. First of all, I would like to seek for apologies if I have directly or indirectly hurt, insulted or offended you especially Chris, Mei Zhi, and Shawn. I don’t wish that the next time we meet each other, we are still like enemies. Words of thanksgiving I have a lot to say but sorry, I’m not able to list down one by one. I just want you guys to know, though some time I might be forceful but my intention is for everyone’s benefit. We can never tell what will happen tomorrow but I pray that God will protect my friends, bless them with good health, love, joy, hope, peace and security. I love you guys, really! I cannot imagine campus life without you guys... I have nothing much for you guys, just this CD as a token of appreciation to all of you. Sorry for not typing the Chinese versions out because I’m very exhausted now. I didn’t sleep well for 3 days straight. Thank you for all the support, love and blessing you gave. Thank you Yee Mun, Yanny, Jonnie, Eugenia, Shawn, Oi Chien, Mei Chiun, Sew Lan, Nisha, Kwan Yi, Sieng Mee, Zhong Zhu, Chin Fei , Chin Yee, Mei Zhi, Chris, Xue Ni, Li Ning, Yong Seng, Li Xiu, Belle, Kwan Yi and our good old friends Zhen Qi and Aki(sorry for the rush for your part... very sorry...) Take care and may God bless you all! A quote to share, “Remember what you should remember; forget what you should forget. Change what you can change; accept what that is unchangeable.” Goodbye my friends!

Why?!

I never realized that life is so fragile until today...
My auntie dropped the bombshell,
telling us that our cousin brother is diagnosed as a lung cancer patient.
It is not an April fool, it is the truth and I have to accept it; but how?
He was the only male cousin which I found comfortable communicating with,
he was the only one who never says no to my requests,
the worst thing is, he is getting married on 12/4/08...
I really couldn't accept this fact that he is going to leave me sooner than I thought.
Now, the only thing I can do is to pray for him. Why am i so useless?!
Life is short, really...
No one can predict what is going to happen next second,
and yet we have to live on with the fact that we are going to die soon.
I thank God that I am sure where I am heading to,
how about my friend and my relatives
More importantly, how about you?
I'm very worried...